Over the rainbow

Friday, May 2, 2008

Dad! I miss you dearly

After a game with my family-in-law, my wife and I watched the ghost show on channel 8. The show is about a father who killed her own daughter and suffered from mental depression due to the rising living standard in Hong Kong. Despite the family is very poor, this father actually gave HKD12 in exchange for his daughter’s favorite beef rice. The catch here is, the dad has only a total of HKD18. This scene between the father and the daughter reminded of the time when I was with my dad.

I used to be a rebellious son who always go against my dad and blame him for not taking care of the family. He loved to gamble and spend most of his time at the illegal gamble den. As for us, we will spend our time loitering around the area, waiting for him to finish his game. If he lost money, he tends to drive his car very fast and scared our wits out.
That is one of the things that I hated most.

But after he passed away, I realized a lot of things that my dad did for me. When I was having my national service, we had dinner and will drive me to my camp. Before alighting me in front of the guardhouse, he will give me $50 and asked me to spend it wisely. I simply just take it from him and hurried into my camp. This touches my heart even till today as I got to know that my dad had only $80 at that time when he handed me the $50.

On 24th June 2004, my mum called me and said that my father suffer from a heart attack. My heart sank. All my years of anger and hatred just disappeared in that moment. I don’t feel angry anymore and I don’t hate him anymore. Everything just vanished when I saw him fighting for his life. Suddenly, I had a sinking feeling inside my heart. On 14th March 2005, my father passed away.

On the funeral day, my mum told me how much my dad loved us. No matter how tough life is, he will always give us the best. “No matter what, I’m still part of his flesh”

Dad! No matter where you go, I still miss you a lot.

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